struggle

8:11 PM 0 Comments

do you ever experience the feelings of struggling?

it's like
you know that
you are not supposed to do certain things

but you cant do it.
you fall into the traps of enemies.

you try to get back yourself to the track.

but when everything is on the track,

temptation came and you fall into it again.

it's like a cycle that never ends.

every time you fall,

you feel ashamed

you feel like hiding yourself from justice.

deep down inside your heart you know that 

you will never get away yourself from the judgement.

hopeless

helpless

i could never tell anyone i have done such things

it's so ashamed

so embarrassing

i feel like i am a slave for this sin.

what should i do.....

i am looked good at the outside

but inside my soul is miserable


who knows that?

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Sorry and I love you

8:54 PM 0 Comments

I'm so sorry
sorry that i couldn't control my temper.

I'm feel guilty that
I can't even said sorry by my tongue.

Your love is so great,
even I took it as granted.

I understand every little act of love you did,
although sometimes i felt burdened.

I just hope you to understand,
my point of view and my feelings.

I have grown up, Mom.
Please don't worried about how my life goes on.
I'm all good here.
I can take care of myself.


At the same time,
I hope you understand,
that I still love you,
as you love me.

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向回憶說拜拜

7:57 PM 0 Comments

正式離今年最心碎的日子
已大約半年

現在回憶起來
我心裡 最刻苦銘心的2段戀情
只是 中學時期
懵懵懂懂的 曖昧

超過了友情
卻戀人未滿

第一段是那純純的初戀
我應該把那最美好的回憶留在心裡

可是今年我卻把這個夢狠狠地粉碎


但如果我沒有去找回你

就沒有現在的我 :)

前幾天和朋友聊起這2段回憶

發現心裡真的坦然了很多

我以後再也不會和別人曖昧不清

那只會傷人傷己

讓人受盡委屈


楊丞琳曖昧裡的歌詞

字字都那麼真實

慶幸的是我已經看開了:)

至少我不會再心痛


正式向以前的回憶說聲拜拜

我知道前面有一個很好很可靠的男人在等待著我

願祂的旨意成全 :)

Bye.

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